As I continue to write my story and I reflect on the time in my life that I was about twelve, it was a major transition. I came from being a child in a home that she was subject to whatever was the situation to getting out in the world and coming into me and my power... I have begun to realize how blessed I really was and that I always had it in me to make a difference. I had the strength without even knowing that I had it. I know others seen it in me, but I myself just did what I did. I am thankful for friends and family that were in my life especially at that time. They were truly angels. Some of them continue to be in my life... I know that they are my soul partners. I also realized that I had the power that once that event was something that I was able to start to separate from that I was able to create a life that I wanted. It wasn't that I did not have trials. It was that through adversity I was able to prevail.
I was able to pull out my yearbooks and read letters and notes that were a part of that time and really reflect back and restore the memories of all the beautiful souls that were a part of that transition. I am absolutely grateful for them. I am also grateful for this opportunity to be able to open myself up to share my story with others. I know that it has been healing for me. I hope that it can do that for others that are struggling with being able to not let the past determine their future. I have had my mother by my side as I have written, especially through the tough parts. She has also been with me as I have had others question why I am doing this. At this point I am driven to fulfill this project because I know that it is part of my life purpose.
I intend to write to my present time…So that I can share how I am able to have a loving relationship with my father and to have forgiven him for whom he was then. To share with others how I am continuing on the path of forgiveness even with the ones closest to me.
To see clearly that I am the only one I am responsible for. That I can release the anger, the upset and the expectations… then I am able to focus on what God has sent me here for. The focus is not on things I cannot change and that really those things are none of my business. My only business is me… I can take care of me… I can give to God what is not mine to carry… I can unconditionally love everyone and if they do not serve my highest good then I am able to let them go on their way. Through prayer and meditation I am able to get through the tough stuff. That I have the tools to retrain my subconscious and my thoughts to be what I choose them to be that serves me. I also have the faith that I have the power to help others as I stay true to my calling.
I am not sure who will really ever read this, but I am sure that the ones that are supposed to will be guided by spirit. Those are the ones that I am doing this for… and of course for ME!
Thank you God for EVERYTHING~
I was able to pull out my yearbooks and read letters and notes that were a part of that time and really reflect back and restore the memories of all the beautiful souls that were a part of that transition. I am absolutely grateful for them. I am also grateful for this opportunity to be able to open myself up to share my story with others. I know that it has been healing for me. I hope that it can do that for others that are struggling with being able to not let the past determine their future. I have had my mother by my side as I have written, especially through the tough parts. She has also been with me as I have had others question why I am doing this. At this point I am driven to fulfill this project because I know that it is part of my life purpose.
I intend to write to my present time…So that I can share how I am able to have a loving relationship with my father and to have forgiven him for whom he was then. To share with others how I am continuing on the path of forgiveness even with the ones closest to me.
To see clearly that I am the only one I am responsible for. That I can release the anger, the upset and the expectations… then I am able to focus on what God has sent me here for. The focus is not on things I cannot change and that really those things are none of my business. My only business is me… I can take care of me… I can give to God what is not mine to carry… I can unconditionally love everyone and if they do not serve my highest good then I am able to let them go on their way. Through prayer and meditation I am able to get through the tough stuff. That I have the tools to retrain my subconscious and my thoughts to be what I choose them to be that serves me. I also have the faith that I have the power to help others as I stay true to my calling.
I am not sure who will really ever read this, but I am sure that the ones that are supposed to will be guided by spirit. Those are the ones that I am doing this for… and of course for ME!
Thank you God for EVERYTHING~